"...me trying to trust the journey even if I don't understand it, and trusting what lies in the peripheries of the unknown."
Once a week, every Wednesday, I go on a date. But it's not like your typical coffee date; it doesn't involve thinking about what your date wants to do next, or if your date is full-on heart-on-eyes emoji on you. Instead, I go out alone.
Surprisingly though, despite the fact that I am physically alone, I don't feel alone. I'm alone with my thoughts. But as expected, it's one of those quiet ones that usually involves a slice of Chocolate Pecan Pie* and an Iced Americano, but it's one of the best conversations that I've ever had.
One of "our" usual conversations is about self worth, and finding the right path into loving myself again. That I am worth more than I think I do, and the best relationship that I can ever have is with myself.
Honestly, I'm not even sure how I ended up here. It took me a while to realize what I lost and how I can get it back. I know that I have a long way to go before I reach the right turn, but I'm positive that I am taking baby steps on the right track.
I guess, going on these coffee dates is me trying to trust the journey even if I don't understand it, and trusting what lies in the peripheries of the unknown.
* Sometimes a Ham & Cheese Croissant when I'm feeling savory